Life is full of constant changes. I believe in this wholeheartedly. If we are not growing and evolving, we are dying. Think about it, a flower is never the same with each passing day. It is either growing towards bloom or dying. Harsh reality of life if you ask me. I do believe that the rate at which we grow or die is truly up to us.
Change can be hard or it can be easy. I believe that it is up to us to decide what that will be. We can choose to get excited or we can choose to focus on the disappointment. Either way, it is up to me to choose what I focus on.
If you look at how quickly babies become toddlers and toddlers become teenagers. It happens with in a blink of the eye but it happens. I have watched many of my friends kids grow up and it’s crazy to me to think of how slow but fast the time passes. It makes me wonder how much have I changed… Looking back on the last 10 years, I feel as though I have grown the most.
My brother, Bryan, did a post similar to this and so I thought how fun would it be to look back at my own life…
So 10 years ago I was still cheering for the SAN DIEGO Chargers, (yes they are still SD Chargers to me, LA Chargers just doesn’t feel right.) In 2007 I was in my 5th season. I had found my groove on the team and felt I knew who I was and where I was headed… At the end of the season, (early 2008) I had made my first ever overseas trip to Japan. We also made stops in Guam and Hawaii. One of my highlights of my CG career. Lots of fun memories created on that trip.
Shortly after my CG career ended I restarted my personal training business. This was a second go at it but I was much better prepared to grow the business. And it did. I was working all over San Diego. Hosting a women’s booty camp class as well as training clients one-on-one. This was also the time where I started coaching high school teams again. This time it was cheer. Not to toot my own horn but I took that program from almost being cut from the school to a thriving program that had fundraised $10k! But like all things, it changed, admin changed and I no longer felt it was the right place. So I moved to another school to assist in their dance program. Another fun time but it was short-lived. As much as I loved coaching, running programs consumed me and it became unhealthy. So again I moved on, this time leaving high school teams for good.
It’s crazy to think that all that happened in just my professional career… in my personal life there were even more changes… I had gotten married… and divorced by 2009. It was the hardest best decision I made for myself. I plan to share that story more deeply in another post. But for now we will leave it at that. After settling on the fact that I wanted to be single… I met Jeff. We met in 2008 but never really had a conversation until I got on Facebook in 2010. Seven years later, we are married and own a home together. We have traveled the world together to places like Paris, Rome, Barcelona, Positano, Florence, Naples, Milan and London. And I could’t tell you all of the cities stateside I’ve been fortunate to travel with him while he worked.
And in those last 7 years is where I feel I changed the most. I have learned to be patient and impatient, messy and clean, energetic and laid back all at the same time. But more importantly I have learned that it is ok to be imperfect and that I don’t have to have all the answers. That I shouldn’t be the smartest person in the room. That my desire to help people is my true purpose and not let fear drive my dreams away. It is ok to do nothing and not feel incredibly guilty. It is also ok to wake up before the sunrise just to read. I think what has changed the most is my ability to accept me for me, based on where I am AND on where I strive to be.
This brings me to the next 10 years…
To know where I will be in my professional and personal life would probably give me anxiety. I can honestly tell you I don’t know. My husband and I may or may not have kids by then… I know I will have at least a niece to spoil. I believe I will continue to travel the world with Jeff. And I know that I will continue to help people reach their health goals. I hope to make an impact in the lives of the people I met, I also want to continue building the relationships I have and maybe even rekindle some old friendships from my past. I know I want to give back to those in need. I can tell you that 10 years from now I will have continued to cherish the life I have been given everyday.
I know that in 10 years when I look back at the person I am today, I will be proud, but I know I will be changed for the better. I know this because I have chosen that change is inevitable but the power to choose who we become is ours, and ours alone.