It’s Sunday Funday… and we are getting ready to have our housewarming party. Now while this is a super exciting time for my husband and I, I can’t help but worry. will there be enough food? Drinks? Will people even show up? Will they have fun? Will I have fun? Silly reasons to worry I’m sure, but at the end of the day, it’s a celebration of what our friends and family have supported us to achieve. It’s crazy to think, we own a home?!?! Who would have thought it was possible for ME?
I’m sure there are plenty of times in my life where I did not believe it was possible. I mean, c’mon, I made Charger Girls at 18 years old. How the heck did that happen? I’ve often wondered where would I be had I not had the opportunities I have had in my life. If I had not been open to the idea of what was possible. It’s scary to think if it were not for a friend to convince me to ditch work on a Saturday to audition, I may have not met my husband, I may have not found my dream “job”, I may not be having this party today.
Who knows where I could have been? Who really cares… I’m here today. I’m grateful for this incredible journey we call life. The ups & downs, the rollercoaster of emotions and the unknowns of what is to come. I’m learning to embrace the messy and enjoy the ride. Some days its scary and other days is exhilarating but all the same it has been a journey.
Every once in a while its fun to look back and laugh and wonder, did I see this coming for my life. In some aspects I would say yes, yes this is what I expected for myself. And in other aspects, I desire to grow and become more. I’m loving this new mentality. I feel like I am more at peace with where I stand today. I’m grateful for the lessons I’ve learned from my mistakes, and I’m not as anxious about my future. My mind is a calm place for once, and I really couldn’t tell you why? It feels like just a few weeks ago I was lost and confused and had incredible doubt in my ability. Not sure what has changed, except for the fact that I have given myself some grace. I still expect perfection but perfection in a totally different way. Hopefully one day I will be able to explain it well enough to help others but for now I’m just going to live it up!