Woohoo! I survived our first big party in our new home. It was a lot fun with lots of laughter. I guess my fears were once again, only in head. haha
Today, is one of those days, where I don’t know what to write. But I’m showing up, anyways. I just finished a call with a fellow coach and we both agreed we are showing up differently in our lives and while its been fun, it’s also exhausting. One of my mentors once said, “Act your way into feeling.” For a long time, that was a difficult concept to put into action. So often my days are just out of habit. Wake up, eat, meet up with clients, eat, have my bootycamp class then eat again… I eat more than 3x a day, but then you might think I eat more than I work. 😉
Things haven’t changed all that much, I just show up outside of my scheduled appointments. I am constantly battling the urge to sit on my couch and binge watch on some random Netflix show. Working from home has its downfalls and benefits… Benefit being… I’m still in my pjs as I write this at 10am.
Nowadays, I focus on how I show up in other people lives. It’s easy to show up to what my calendar says I need to show up too, but in reality I don’t think I was completely present with my family and friends. I was just trying to exist. It’s amazing what a difference my relationships are now that I am not focusing on what am I getting from life, but what am I adding to other people’s life.
I’ve been very fortunate to have some amazing people show up for me. They have added so much value to my life by simply showing up. And my hopes is that I can pay it forward to others. I’m sorry to say I had lived a selfish life. I often looked at life as, what can I get out of it and hope to find happiness somewhere along the way. But I was never satisfied or happy. Nothing was ever “enough”, not even me. But the reality is, is that I have enough and am enough. We all are. The thought “I am enough.” is hard to say aloud without feeling choked up. I never thought I was. I know I have shared this before, but it’s still a battle for me but each passing day I’m able to love myself a little bit more. With each passing day, I am becoming more of who I desire to be. Each passing day, I’m learning to show up regardless what my head is telling me.
So if you’re still reading this… please know that YOU ARE ENOUGH.